I had a very complicated pregnancy. at 5.5 weeks I had spotting was put on modified bedrest at 6.5 weeks due to a subchorninic hemorrhage and finding out I had a twin pregnancy. baby A stopped developing at 7.5 weeks. My T shaped uterus and Septum it was like a war in there for My Parker Thomas (baby B) but he fought the entire time. ultimately an infection was introduced and my placenta abrupted. They are not sure from what..the twin demise, SCH, who knows. all I know is that after being monitired for for hours I was sent home cervix closed, baby's HB stong. 2 hours later I was back, in with excruciating lower back pain and pressure with spasm like back contractions every 2 min. and when they checked me again I was at 5cm. 30 min after that my Dr. was there, I was now at 8cm and they told me the only thing I could do to help the pain was push. I delivered my beautiful baby boy at 21 weeks 6 days gestation on 9/28/11 at 6:26 am (he was 1lb. 3oz, 11 inches long) he tried to breath/ cry. He was placed in my arms. I touched his lips, he puckered them at me. I traced every inch of him with my finger tip in spurts of my sobbing, silence and kisses. 34 minutes later my son passed peacefully in my arms with his daddy by our side.his brother and sister and my entire family got to hold him. The pain on everyones face still haunts me. leaving the hospital without him was like pouring salt on the wound. Parker looked just like my husband. Sometimes when he falls asleep before me I can't help but stare at him. I swear I can see our son. I Love and Miss you my son I carry your heart with me,
I carry it in my heart!
Kiarah, Joshua jr, Makiah & Marcus
I have had 3 miscariages one was twins a boy n a girl. I cant believe how hard every day is. How much i would do anything to have them back. I see all my friends having babiea and it kills me to know i can never carry my babies for more than four months. At least i know they are in heaven. :(
Quinton Edward and Owen Scott
Wednesday April 25th, 2012 started out like any other day. I woke up tired and sore from being pregnant. We had just returned from our baby moon and that weekend we painted the twins nursery. I was so happy. I got through my work day picked up pizza for dinner and headed home. My husband and I ate, and I went to the bathroom for one of my many pee breaks, except this time when I wiped there was blood. I immediately began to panic. I told my husband I was bleeding, I tried to call my Mom, no answer. I became more frantic. I called the Doctor on call, he was in surgery. My mom called me back to tell me she was on her way, she arrived in seconds and we headed to the hospital. That was the longest 30 minutes of my life, a thousand scenarios went through my head, but I tried everything to stay positive. Once arriving to the hospital the emergency room took me immediately back and began the examination. I had an ultrasound which revealed two beating hearts but my membranes were coming out. The next step was to start magnesium to stop the contractions and try to ease the membranes back inside and get a band on my cervix. I cried, I cried so much and begged God to save my babies. Begged him to let me keep them. I laid in that bed, all night feeling my contractions, helpless to stop them. I continued to plead with God to let me have the opportunity to raise my babies. It was the longest night of my life. The next morning, I received another ultrasound, while it still revealed the two beating hearts of my babies, my contractions did not ease enough to relax my uterus and allow the membranes to go back in. My cervix was incompetent, it failed me, my body failed my babies. I was going to lose them. My doctor reached out to another doctor at a different hospital for the second opinion. They said I could be transferred, but the outcome would be the same. I would inevitably lose them. I spoke to my husband about our options and decided to stay hoping for a miracle. They stopped the magnesium and I prayed this all would stop, I continued to plead with God to save my babies, to leave them here with me. My labor progressed. By Thursday afternoon, I was in full on labor, my contractions were intense, but I refused to let them break my water. I just could not except that this was happening. I asked for medicine to relieve my pain but nothing helped. I received an epidural that evening. The pain eased and I held on to hope, I held on to it so tightly. I felt them move inside of me, I felt them moving and kicking the whole day. It all felt like this horrible dream I could not wake up from. I slept because of the medicine, but woke often to cry. Friday, April 27th, 2012 at just a little after 8:00AM the Doctor came in to check me. My water had still not broken, but when she checked me, I could feel her touching my first baby, and I knew. I knew that my prayers had went unanswered and my twins were going to die. The Doctor told me I had to push. I had to deliver my baby because it could not live in my vaginal opening. At around 8:15AM I felt heavy contractions, the epidural had started to wear off quickly and my body was continuing to force them out. I pushed but not hard. I did not want to do this, I could not bare the thought, I could not. I pushed again. My water broke, when it was half way out and I brought a little boy into this world, his heart beating, but he was unable to breathe, his lungs were not developed enough. They scooped him up in a blanket and laid him on my chest. He was beautiful. The most beautiful baby I had ever seen. Ten fingers, ten toes, this perfect little face, he moved like they said he would, and he passed away like they said he would. I held onto him, touched face, and handed him to my husband, his first born son, fit in the palm of his hand. The doctor checked me again and Baby B had also moved down with the pushing. I held on to hope. The Doctor asked me to push to deliver the first placenta and I pushed only barely, still pleading with God not to do this. The placenta came and right behind it a second baby boy. They laid him on my chest just like they laid his brother and I wept. He was so beautiful. They resembled each other so much, even though they were fraternal. Ten more fingers, ten more toes, another beautiful face. I handed my husbands second son to him, he cradled him in his hands, so proud and so sad. That baby boy held his finger and my husband let go of all of his emotions. I wanted to run to him, but I couldn't, I lay there while they still worked on me, and I could not hold my husband I could not tell him I was sorry I could not take away his pain, I could not handle mine. He held his second born son while he passed and then he cried in the arms of his mother and my grandma. Again, I was helpless to stop this, helpless to take his pain away and handle my own. The pain our parents feel, the pain of our brothers and sisters. After I was cleaned up I wept in the arms of my mother, the arms of my husband. I could find no comfort. Nothing felt right, everything was in shambles. Shortly, after their birth, they rolled my boys in, dressed in the most beautiful crocheted wraps, laying on the most beautiful crocheted blankets. They positioned them holding hands. I cried, my husband cried. What was left of my heart was laying there in that hospital bassinet. I felt like I was on the outside watching this happen to someone else. This could not be happening to me, to us. We named our sons. Quinton Edward and Owen Scott, weighed less than a pound each and only 8 and 9 inches long. When I felt like I could take no more, I had to make arrangements for them. I had decide how to lay my children to rest. This immediate pain stung my heart. Our options were to bury them, send them to pathology where they would treat them like tissue, cremate them, and I would never know what happened to them, or we could have them cremated and take them home with us. We chose to have them cremated and take them home with us. Everything happened so fast. The hospital called the funeral home, and they came up to talk to us, to pray and to take my sons with them. I asked to see them one last time. We held them, we cried. All the dreams and expectations I had for them. Everything I had ever wanted to see them accomplish, was gone. They were gone, my sweet baby boys were gone. I had to hand them over to someone else who promised to take good care of them. But they couldn't, never as good as we could have, no one could ever love them as much as us, no one. I had to give my babies to God, then I had to give my babies to complete strangers at a funeral home. I didn't trust either one of them at that point, but I had no other choice. I just had to keep giving them away, as much as I wanted to keep them, I had to keep handing them over to someone else. Saturday, April 28th, 2012 we had to go to the funeral home to make their final arrangements and pick out their tiny urn. I had no idea they made urns so small. Ignorance is bliss. I cried in that funeral home, when I signed those papers with each of their names listed at the top. First Quinton's, then Owen's. My boys. My angels. We picked their urn, they explained the process to us, and I cried more. My husband put on this strong face, he held me up when I thought my knees would buckle beneath me. The people at the funeral home were very compassionate, they were very kind. I begged them to keep them together. If mommy and daddy weren't there, all they had was each other. He promised me that they would. The following Friday, a week to the day they were born. I picked up my boys in a n urn. I bought them home in an urn, not a car seat. I held that urn all the way home, and I cried. The next week was a blur, I stayed home. I talked to our family, my friends, and I cried, very often. I cannot describe this pain. I cannot describe how one minute you can have a half smile on your face and the next be crying uncontrollably. I wanted the world to stop. I still do. I want to grieve this unimaginable loss, but everything keeps moving around me. Life is still going on. I feel like I want to die. I have this burning sensation to be with them, I move because people tell me I have to. I eat once a day because my husband asks me to. People tell me they need me, but I don't know why. Why would you need me? I am good for nothing. People promise me this will get better. I keep thinking this is an awful dream, every night I go to sleep with the help of a pill and every morning I wake up to the reality that is my life. My grief starts again, and every day it takes on a new face, a new challenge. My first born children, my sons, my precious beautiful babies. I have to go on without you. I have to find strength I don't have, that I don't want to have. I feel so empty with out your movement, so unhappy with out the anticipation of raising you. Your room, all the things we bought for you. The many things we had planned. Mother's Day, Fathers Day, your daddy's birthday Memorial Day, Independence day, the day that was scheduled for your baby shower, my birthday, the date you were due, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. I have to do all of these things with out you. I had plans, as crazy as it seemed, I could not wait to show you off, to buy things for you, watch you grow, smile, cry, play, take pictures of you with all of your family, everyone who anticipated your arrival. I am broken, defeated, angry, a million emotions all rolled into one messed up person, me. I cannot see outside of the loss of you, everything else is so pointless. I have went through the motions. I have cried, I have laughed, and I have cried again. I have thought about you both. I have asked God why, everyday. He does not answer me. I talk to you, I hope you can hear me. I love you both more than this life itself, I hope you can feel it. I will live for you if that's what I have to do, I cannot promise that everyday will be wonderful. I cannot promise that I won't be afraid. I cannot promise that I will live my life on the edge. I cannot promise that I will not have my days where I just want to curl up and die. But for you Quinton and Owen, I promise that everyday, I will pick myself up and I will do this. My heart will be broken, I will miss you everyday, I will tell your future brothers and sisters about you, I will teach them how to talk to you. Your daddy and I will never forget you or the day you came into this world, and the same day you left it. I will love you with my whole heart everyday for the rest of my life. You both will always be the first, you have shown me that love this big is possible, where I could have only imagined it before. I will always be your Mommy, and Daddy will always be your Daddy. No one will ever know the measure of our love for you, no one will ever love you as much as us, no one. I will do this for you. I will do whatever it takes to see you again, I will see you again, and you will be in my arms again. It may take me awhile to get there. Wait for me.
The first time I heard your tiny heartbeat I knew you captured my heart forever. That day was the one and only time I'd ever hear that tiny beat of your heart. The sound still stays in my mind even 4 yrs later. At 10 wks mommy and daddy watched you moved across my belly. it was the most amazing site ever. We had a 12 wk ultrasound planned but on that day our lives changed forever. Your tiny heart was no longer beating. The doctors said you had passed away within the past 24hrs. I had to wait 9 days before my body finally had a natural miscarriage. the worst 9 days of my life. its been almost 4 yrs but not a day passes without you on my mind. I know you are above watching over mommy, daddy and little sister Isabel. We love and miss you more than ever!
Angel "Sweet Pea"
Like my previous 3 pregnancy we thought everything would be fine..sadly we were wrong & lost our Precious "SweetPea" on December 18 2008 at 7 weeks gestation after seeing a heartbeat 2 days b4...Mommy misses you as much today as the day we lost you my angel..I love you & as long as I live you will live <3
On March 18, 2012...A piece of me died..you went to heaven. I think of you everyday. I cry myself to sleep hoping you will visit me in my dreams. Until we meet again my little angel.
My baby girl was born stillborn at 32 weeks gestation on April 12,2012. We have no answers as to why, but she was so precious and beautiful and just so perfect. The hurt is still so new and I am so heartbroken. I just look at photos and remember the moments I got to share with her. Forever in my heart my precious angel McKinah Rose.
I remember her beautiful profile on ultrasound.
There is a song by Savage Garden that says, "I knew I loved you before I met you..." When Mommy and I found out we were going to have you, even though we were shocked and a little scared, we were so excited. We never expected to be blessed with another beautiful child. You were truly going to be our miracle baby. We were madly in love with the chance to welcome you into the world. All of us: Me, Mommy, your big sisters and brother, talked about dressing you up in dresses and bows in your hair. Jessi said you'd be "like a little baby doll." Taylor was excited for a little sister. We don't know what happened. Maybe you were sick in your own little way. Whatever the reason, God decided He had to take you to heaven before we had the chance to welcome you into the world...hold you...kiss your cheek. Even though we never got the chance to say hello...to hug you...to show you off to our family and friends, you were still ours. We loved you just as much in the short time you were a part of our lives as we would have every day for your entire life. We are so sad that we don't have you. We wish we could have you back. But even though we can't, know that you will forever be remembered by all of us. There is a special little place in our hearts for you. You will forever be honored. Thanks to the great people at the hospital, you and all of the other babies who don't make it in the world will forever be remembered in a memorial service. Mommy and I will be there every time to remember you and to be with the other Mommies and Daddies who are going through the same feelings we are. Mommy and I believe that every little baby, whether they make it into this world or not, needs to have their own special name...so that your grandmas and grandpas who are holding you right now know what to call you...and we'll be able to find you when someday we join you. So sleep sweet, little Adriana Michelle...bask in the love you share with our big family in heaven, and watch over your brother and sisters here on Earth. Until we see you again, spread your wings and fly with all the other angels.
Love always, Mommy and Daddy
Born sleeping 11/20/08
It was May 24 2009 at 6pm we got a call to meet my daughter at the hospital to pick up our grandson. Oh we were so excited!!!!! Well at 6:15pm we got a phone call from hospital to come up , they couldn't find a heart beat. I left Trevor with Bompa and I flew out and down the roads. When I got up to their my daughter deleivered a 10lb baby boy , Tyler, but he passed away 24 hrs befor she delivered Tyler. I can not explain the feeling we all had but I did get to hold baby Tyler. Baby Tyler was taken from us . To this day we we miss our baby Tyler and we still think factor 5 was the cause of it. We now are waiting for our new grandchild to come any day now. She is being watched very close now. I too started to make baby hats for our nursery here ,called, TJ's Love Hats. Tyler, you are missed so much and always in our hearts, will never be forgotten. You are our little Angel
Love Grandma & Bompa
I will never forget you. How could I, I caught you in my hand. You were beautiful. Perfect for 15weeks gestation. I miss you so much and it has only been 2 days. Hug Dakota For us. Let her know we love her too. All I wanted was to have my rainbow baby here and healthy but you had other plans. Mommy and Daddy love you both.
We were blessed with a second chance.... everything was going great and I felt wonderful. I was very cautious due to earlier losses... but I prayed constantly. At 24 wks 4 days my baby was very quiet. I went to the doctor's to get checked and my baby's heart had stopped beating. I had a c-section the next day and when my son came out, the cord was wrapped around his neck 3 times. My sweet baby Shane was perfect.... from head to toe... perfect. Shane we miss you everyday and would do anything to have you back. My arms ache to hold you and my heart hurts. Until I see you again my angel.... I love you always and forever! R.I.P. Shane Gerris 12-22-11
We were surprised to find out we were expecting since we thought we finished our family 7 years earlier. At Blake's 16 week apt, the doctor couldn't find his heart beat. Just like that..... our baby was gone. Never did we think this would happen to us. Rest in Peace our lil baby boy Blake Russell 3-31-11
I was 15 weeks pregnant when I delivered our youngest son Karter. He was born November 27, 2011 after spending 3 hour in ER and 9 hours in L&D. It was 3 days after thanksgiving. His original due date was May 18th which happens to also be my daughters birthday. I am still having a hard time coping but everyday I remember one say I will hold my baby again. Until then, baby boy, know you are forever loved. Your older brother and sister talk about you a lot. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. Mommy and daddy love you more than you will ever know. We all love you, Karter Benton Pond, our sweet and beautiful angel.
"Our Little Monster"
April 17, 2011, my boyfriend and I decided to take a pergnancy test. It came out positive. We were so happy knowing we had a little one on our way. Our parents were upset and mad but we didnt care we were just happy that God planted a little seed in my tummy during my pergnancy. Every thing seemed soo good soo perfect untill my frist ultrasound the doctor found out that i was leaking amniotic fluid. She gave us hope and told me i had to be in bed rest until i was 27 week then i would be hosptilize to get a c-section. I had to go in every week every other day to get blood test done and a ultrasound. 23 weeks I had my second ultrasound. I had 15% more amniotic fluid. My prayers were answered. I got to see my babys legs and little feet move. By that day I knew that everythig was going to be okay. 25 weeks I got sent to a specialist. I was excited and nervous to hear what the doctor was going to tell me. The doctor seemd speechless and sad. All he asked me if I ever got a ultrasound picture. I kept praying and praying. He came in with teary eyes and said I'm so sorry to say this but theres no heartbeat. I couldnt belive it. I was so ready to have my baby in my arms.I had hope and faith in god that every one was worng. September 20 2011at 6:30am my baby monster was born sleeping. Theres no day I don't think about our baby. September will never be the same.You'll always be in our hearts and when God calls us home to hs kingdom we'll be ready to finally hold you... but for right now we have to wait. Just know you're always in our hearts and minds my Precious Angel<3
Richard & Michelle
My sweet angel baby- who I just know in my heart was a boy -was only apart of me for 6 short weeks, and I became his mommy from the moment he was conceived. I think about my sweet baby quite often and even though its been almost 2 years since he went to be with our Father in heaven my heart still aches for my Noah. I look forward to the day we I am reunited with him in heaven. I wish I had a ultrasound picture or something to remember my baby by, so I try to find things to have as a keepsake for him. My angel will always be precious to me and if it were not for him going before it was time, my my 5th baby Liam wouldn't be here with us today. As it is bittersweet to have one child and not the other, I know God has the perfect plan and I trust in Him as to why things happen the way they do. Noah~ mommy and daddy love you and miss you everyday!! <3
Samuel & Christian
At 20 weeks at a routine check, we found out our baby had passed away, 3 days later he was delivered, and we found out he was a boy, he was perfect, and so tiny. We named him christian. leaving the hospital with a box, instead of our baby was one of the blackest , mournful, heart breaking feelings I think a human can feel. That was in January of 2009, . Exactly 9 months later , in September, i was 23 weeks pregnant with our 2nd little boy, his name was Samuel, and I noticed I hadnt felt him move as much that day. I still remember even now the last time I felt him move, it was early in the morning, and I was sitting in our living room in a rocking chair. That was the last time. It was evening and I decided to go to the emergency room. We found he too had passed away. He came 1 day later, and was so perfect, so beautiful, I felt like if I could just somehow get him warm that he would be alive, it was shattering. I cry when I think of them, I have a hole in my heart that will never be filled. I thought when I lost Christian that no feeling could be more sorrowful than what felt for him, but when we lost Samuel I knew I was wrong,. I went to a very dark place, but God brought me out, and I know I will see my precious babies again. I will hold them again. I treasure the tiny hat and clothing items I have, anything that touched their bodies. Thank you for doing this.
My dear sweet Noah i remember hearing your heart beat for the last time it was music to my ears then a week later you wete born into heaven at 19 weeks. I will never forget the way you would move and kick may you rest with the angels my dear sweat son.
The day before I was 27 weeks, I woke up sick, so sick. I knew something wasn't right, I woke up my fiance to take me to the hospital. I didn't make it out of the bed before I started having seziures, I had 3. I was rushed to the hospital, where they took Kennedy via c-section, she was sent to another hospital with a better NICU. She weighed 1pound and 3/8 of an ounce. She had dark brown hair, and her fathers eye's. She looked just like him. I was put under sedation for 2 days, the day I woke up was the day that she went to be with Jesus. I didn't get to see her or hold her while she was on this earth. Her father held her the last few hours she was alive. All I have are pictures of her, and the clothes she wore while in the NICU. I visit her grave every Saturday, with my fiance.
On 11/16/2012, I attended my monthly OB appointment. When the doctor went to check her heartbeat, it was extremely faint and he could not determine why. That was the last time her heart beat. The immediately got me in for an ultrasound. Unfortunately we were presented with the horrible news that there was no longer a heartbeat. I was sent to the hospital the next morning for an induction. After 3 days of labor, Morgan was born asleep on 11/19/2011 at 12:56pm. She was 9 inches long and weighed 6.8 ounces. I was only able to carry her for 26 weeks, but she has changed me for a lifetime. We will meet again, but until then, Morgan will always be in my thoughts and prayers. She will live in my heart forever!
My sister was just 17 weeks when she gave birth to her beautiful little girl, Emma Joy on February 25, 2011. Our whole family was looking forward to the precious new addition but God had plans to call her home in His time and not ours. Not a day goes by that she is not thought of and missed. We all look forward to the day when we get to meet her again and spend eternity together. My sister always says "Emma is missed, Emma is loved, and Emma is a blessing in my life." Emma, life just isn't the same without you. As your mom use to say to you when you were in her tummy, I love you to the moon and back. Love your favorite Auntie.
Christyn Bryce Mitchell
You were only in my womb a short time but you filled our hearts forever :) Mommy and Daddy love you so much and are so greatful to have an Angel that watches over us.We will keep your memory Alive as long as we live. Your sissy and brother will then do it for us. We will see you again at Heavens Gates.We Love You Our Sweet Angel!
August 1,1983 1 yr after my grandmother passed, I was 38 wks pregnant & very sick. I went to the dr.3 days in a row telling him something was wrong but each time the baby's heartbeat was fine & he said I was just getting nervous because i was due to give birth anytime. Aug 2,1983 I called the dr after being up sick all night & he told me he was going to admit me for ivs. so they did & I started to feel better,at 430pm when the shift changed a new nurse came in & I was listeneing to my babys heartbeat while she did her paperwork when I had a real bad pain,next time I knew anything I woke up to nurses in bed with me,5 drs all around me.machines every where.after that it was so crazy,my family was called in.they didnt know what was wrong,then I started to bleed from every where,eyes,nose,ears etc.they rushed me to surgery to find out i had a spleenic anursym that had burst and my baby girl was gone!!! she died from lack of oxygen. I felt like I killed her for so many yrs but now I know it was God's plans for us. I coded 7x on the operating table. God saved me that night so i would have a chance to ask to be forgiven of my sins so i can be with my princess in eternity.i love you Amanda Faith xoxo mommy
Our Sweet Gavin Michael, You gave us 60 1/2 miraculous hours and we are forever grateful. Our first born, the love of our life we are so proud to be your parents. You are the sun that gives us light and the moon that guides us at night. We will forever feel your warmth and be guided by your love. We love you yesterday, today, tomorrow and all the days of our lives. Love Always, Mommy & Daddy
Ashley & Jesse
I went for an ultrasound on the day of my 23 week to see what i was having as well. There was no heart beat. I had 3 boys was praying hard for a girl.. was told there was no heart beat then maybe 30 seconds later was told it was my baby girl..Was induced and after 50 something hours she was born still but yet still born.
I was just a day shy of 25wks when my body thought it was time to deliver. Just one week after finding out I had excess fluid, I went into labor. When I got to the hospital they tried to stop the contractions with the magnesium but there was no stopping our little one from making her grand entrance. Callie Marie was born at 12:10 pm on Memorial Day 2011, 1lb 12oz and 11.5in. She spent one week in the NICU before getting her wings on 6-6-2011. That was one week I will never forget. It had it's ups and downs but I was blessed to spend those seven days with her. She was a fighter! I got to paricipate in her care by taking her temp., changing her little diaper, feedings and oral care. In the hospital she contracted an infection caused by one of the top 8 pathogens found in hospitals, most commonly in the NICU. Klebsiella Phnemonia causes an infection in the lungs and her being so small, Callie never had a chance. It has been hard to accept but I have giving this to God and asked him for the strength to accept his will. She is no longer suffering I know but there is a void that will never be filled, that is until we meet again. I thank-you "lil mama" for coming into our lives and teaching us what it means to fight. I have a new outlook on life because of you. Memorial Day will never be the same. We love you and miss you Callie Marie. You will never be forgotten and although we are apart your spirit lives within us, FOREVER IN OUR HEART! Rest in Peace Precious Angel....
I found out I was pregnant with my first baby on June 10, 2008, I was so excited to finally become a mommy. I started spotting at 11 weeks and miscarried my angel on August 8, 2008...I will never forget him, he taught me how to love. I had my daughter in February of 2010, thankfully she is alive and well. I found out September 30, 2011 I was expecting another miracle, a surprise but definitely wanted. I knew something was off the whole pregnancy, and I just lost my sweet baby a few days ago on November 26, 2011, just two days after Thanksgiving. I was exactly 13wks along and I miss her so much already. Mommy loves both of you dearly, please take care of each other until I can be with you again
Hudson~ I will always carry your name on my lips, I will always hold your memory in my heart, I will always remember you... I am still amazed that the Lord thought so highly of me as to choose me as your mommy. Someday I will get to hold you again in Heaven. Until then...
Chayei Nicole & Elisheva Marie
My girls went to be with G-d on September 20, 2011. It's all still so new. My emotions still so raw. The 16 weeks I carried you just wasn't long enough but I will forever be grateful for the 16 weeks I had. You've changed my life forever. I love you mommies sweet angels.
Rachel Nicole Lynn Craft
Rachel was supposed to be born on december 22 2011. Rachel went home with her father in heaven...and not a day goes by where i dont think about u!!! mommy loves u baby girl and even though i sang to u while u were i my tummy i still sing to YOU everyday...even though it doesnt look like it yes im singing to u...even when i sing in church that is especially for you my sweet baby girl<3 i love you rachel
Alexander was born at 34 weeks but passed at 2 weeks from GBS. The moon will rise, the sun will set but i won't forget.
My little girl was born sleeping at 20 week due to PROM and factor 5. gone too soon but never forgotten
I remember finding out we were having two miracles. Daddy and I were so nervous but excited. Our love for you both will never cease. I only wish I could have held you. Baby B went to be with the LORD in late September. Baby A went to be with you both mid October. We love you both. I think about you everyday and can not wait until we meet you. My beautiful twins, my loves.
We had been trying so long to have you and after a year we finally conceived. You were loved beyond measure and we lost you way to soon. Your mommy and daddy and brother and sister will always love you Angel!
Born 12-30-2007 at 16 wks. 5oz., 7in long. He lived from 3:08am-4:20am. I held you in my arms and watched you close. You fought so hard to stay with us. You are in our hearts forever.
After losing brother Noah in Oct 2010 at 12 weeks, we were thrilled to find out we were having another baby- a girl. When your heart stopped beating I felt as if mine would stop as well. There is an emptiness within me that will never be filled. I love you both so very much and miss you each and every day. You left me way too soon but left an imprint on my heart that will last an eternity. Grandma Sue will rock you both in Heaven until the day comes that I can hold you again. Mommy and Daddy love you and miss you each and every day.
Ryland Sebastian Xavier Ames
Ryland was born sleeping on 10.24.2011 at 36 weeks. I was only two weeks away from being induced with him due to high risk. We miss our baby angel boy so much. We love you so much precious!
Always in our hearts. 4/21/11-5/4/11 Love you to the moon and back baby. Mommy,daddy and Sassy
Chad Joseph Montgomery, Jr.
It has only been a week and a half since I delivered my precious baby boy. I miss him so much. I wish you were still in my womb C.J., safe and secure but you had to become my guardian angel. I will never ever forget you, I love you so much words can't even explain. October 21, 2011 is the day you were born into heaven. I wish I could understand why we have been separated so soon and so unexpectly. I may never know why but you will forever remain in my heart, my sweet angel baby boy. I can't wait til the day I get to see you in heaven and we finally embrace each other forever. I held you in the palm of my left hand, a moment I will never ever forget. Rest in PARADISE my love.
since the first time i saw you in the ultrasound , i was speachless, you and your sisiter growing in side of me. i saw you and sister so often with all the ultrasound they did to try to get us out of TTTS way.but at the end its god that deciedes and we said good bye to you on Aug.27.2010 and welcome your sis. our heart ache with pain and we miss you every second of the day . mommy, papa, ces, sergi, esto , free and Jenavieve our twinless twin
I was alone in the hospital ! It was to early I said to myself - Who can I call ? Who would be here ? All these thoughts and fears escaped me when they said I was fully dialated and you were coming . A couple of pushes and I heard the most angelic cry ! They placed you on me . You were small but not as small as they thought you would be . I looked at you and I couldnt be HAPPIER with where I saw my life heading . Then you looked into my eyes and I saw that you werent going to make it through . Your eye contact told me " Mommy , I will be okay " and you took your last breath in my arms . December 13th 2007 was the most beautiful and heartbreaking day in my history ! I love you Sean ! Myself , Your father , Your Goddies , and Friends all miss you . Sleep in Jesus Prince !
We found out we were going to have you and we were ecstatic. We found out you were a girl and we were so excited. We love you and we miss you. Watch over Mommy, Daddy, and Dace. You made me appreciate everyone in my life. You taught me to love without boundaries and to forgive. We love you and we miss you more than words can say.
Amber & Dustin
Colton was born on February 18, 2011. It's still hard 8 months later, but I know I have a little angel who is watching over his brothers and me. We love and miss you every day!
All i have is a sono picture baby passed at 9wks 3 days Mommy,Daddy,sissy and you 3 big brothers love you my Angel baby!!!!!!
Samson was born so quietly into this world without a sound on October 15, 2010. Although he never said a word, his presence in our lives can still make time stand still. We will never forget him, or the lessons he taught us about being a family. We all love and miss you dearly! Love, your Mommy, Daddy, big brother Christopher, and big sis Karolynn
Rest in peace, our Precous Angel
Alexis Antonette McGraw
Born into Heaven at 36 weeks on April 25th, 2011. You were so close to joining us in this world, baby girl. You opened your eyes to Jesus and your sister Hope. Somedays I am so Jealous. We miss and love you beyond words. Love Mommy, Daddy , Kyler, Hunter and Bella
Hope Joi McGraw
Born at 17 weeks - January 18th,2009. You were Gods perfect creation, You fit in the palm in our hand. We love and miss you and our always in our thoughts. Love Mommy, Daddy, Kyler, Hunter and Bella
love them all I used to feel her kick me and move. Give me joy
Kristofer Michael Lindsay
Kristofer came way too early but will never be forgotten. He was born on Dec.5 2002 by C-section. He went back to heaven 30 minuted after birth. He died in his father's arms and made a big impact on all who surrounded him. I love you honey and will always miss you.
I was so excited to finally have a sweet lil girl growing inside me. 20 weeks was not enough, but it left an imprint in my heart. I never got to hold you and I never got to hear you cry, but you grew inside my heart and forever you will be there. I know Grandma Carmen holds you in her arms in heaven. Mommy and Daddy Love you, until the day we meet again.
Monique & Jose Angel Torres
I don't have many memories except knowing that he did exist and he lived in me. I remember only he loved cereal and black olives while he was inside my body. But no matter what, I remember carrying him as long as I was allowed to in me... He is my everything!!! I LOVE YOU ANGEL..FOREVER AND A DAY...and I will see you when it's my time to be with you.
Audrina you are the brightest light in my life & in the skies. You are who I live for, your all that I've wished for. You are my preiouse little girl. I love and miss you so much. I know you and Calvin are playing right as I type this =] I hope I make you proud cause your all I plan to make proud! I love and miss you so much. When I get my tattoo please give me some sign of what you think <3. -love always Mommy!!!
Kadin Jude Scott
I remember the first time I heard your little heartbeat. The sound of it was so perfect. Daddy and I only heard your heart beating two times before you died. I had no idea that the flip feeling inside of my tummy was going to be the only time I would feel you mave inside of me. You passed away 10 days beore I found out that you died. you passed away due to neural tube defects. Your three older sisters, mysel, and daddy miss you and love you very much. Until we meet again we will always have you in our hearts.
Ryan Thomas was lost at 6 weeks gestation. Through God's grace his identical twin brother Ian Kevin (the were identical twins in separate sacks and but shared a placenta) was ok and is 10 months old now. We remind Ian of his brother every day, and pray for the soul of baby Ryan and wish he could be here with us.Everyday that I am blessed to see Ian's face I think to myself "wow there could have been 2 babies with such beauty" we love you sweet angel, may your memory be eternal.. Love, Auntie Erin
9 weeks pregnant was not nearly long enough to satisfy my heart, But only a couple of weeks knowing you were coming was all it took for you to have my heart ! Holding you in my hand wont compare to holding you in my heart .. Sleep sweet baby I am forever yours.. I love you ..Mommy xoxoxo
Noah Z. Secor
Noah you're mommy's guardian angel as well as your baby sister and daddys :) we love you and miss you with all our hearts. Someday we will be able to hug you and that day will be the best day in my life! Forever in our hearts no matter what anyone may think or say. Love, Mommy
My baby I am so sorry I couldn't keep you. My heart has been so broken since I lost you two weeks ago. We only had a few short weeks together, it was not nearly enough. I know God is taking care of you and you are with so many grandparents that love you. You will always have a piece of my heart. Mommy misses you so much!
Our Angel Baby
We weren't planning on a baby yet, but we were so excited when we found out I was pregnant at 3 1/2 weeks with our first child. In the following weeks, I grew to love you so very much and thought of what you'd look like and be like. Would you take after me or daddy? I was so happy thinking about you and your late winter arrival. Then at 13wks, I started bleeding and cramping...that day, on August 20, 2011, we said goodbye. You will always be in our hearts...we love you little angel.
I was so happy and scared when I found out about you. I tell your sister and brothers that you were the first to be born. I know I will see you again in heaven. Love, Mommy
Uriah Cole Christian
Uriah was born March 09,2011. My husband and i were go happy and excited for our first baby. We've been married for 11 years and tried to have a baby. When i found out i was pregnant, my husband and i did everything right. I bought the book of what to expect, got the book of baby names. I was 3 days away from my due date when i didnt feel my baby move. I went to the hospital and thought nothing was wrong. As i layed there i saw the look on the nurses face..then she left and got another Dr. The 3 words i cant get out of my head "Im so sorry" there wasnt a heartbeat. I cried and couldnt believe this was happening to me..why me i asked.. why my baby!. I think about him everyday and how he looked like his father. I still cry. I know Uriah will be my little angel. *mommy will always love you until my last breath*
Blake Steven & Bradyn Ray
When I found out I was pregnant with you boys I was so scared yet filled with so much joy and happiness along with your daddy and the rest of our family and friends. Your daddy loved to watch my belly grow and he wishes he got the chance to feel you guys kick. Great Grandma was making mommy prego summer shirts. Everyone wanted you boys here with us. November 20th 2011 your due date we are gonna have a little memorial for you boys. I miss you my sweet baby boys every second of every day. Mommy and Daddy love you forever and always <3 <3
I was very excited to find out I was pregnant with you...than later devastated to learn that I was loosing you. Mommy, daddy, and your big brother Keyon'Dre love and miss you. I will someday get to hold you in my arms. We love you.
I was so excited to find out your mommy was carrying you, another nephew to love and spoil. That day your that your mom called me from the hospital crying my heart dropped to my feet. Your in heaven now and we miss you deeply.
Forever in our hearts,
Noah James, Michael Angel
We miss you deeply and cant help but to think what you all would look like or the funny characters you would have became. Just to hold you again and tell you how special you are and how much you are loved and missed, would be the only thing we can ever want. We think about you everyday and you are both in our hearts forever. Take care of each other in heaven, until the day we can see each other again, We love you Michael Angel and Noah James
Love Mommy, Daddy, and Josh
My favorite Memory of you was seeing you smile on our Ultrasound Session the day my water broke (way too soon) Even though you wouldn't survive because you were only 18 wks gestation, you still managed to stay strong for 4 days until I actually delivered you. I cherish the sonogram picture of your beautiful smile. I miss you more than you could possibly imagine. You are now big Brother to 2 Beautiful Sisters. Ariana is now 6 and Alexis is almost 2. I've told Ariana all about you and she asks about you daily. You sent us a beautiful Rainbow on your 8th birthday 8/29 it was so bright and so pretty and only appeared for a few minutes. Thank you so Much. Love Mommy (Morena)
You were loved from the moment I knew about you. You moved a lot and I remember feeling your faint hiccups for the first time. Holding you in my arms was one of the greatest moments of my life and I will always cherish it. Love you always ♥
Isaac Marvin-Lee Stokes
The only memory I have of my beautiful baby boy is of him rolling around in my stomach which looked like waves of the ocean! We love and miss you little man and can't wait to be with you again some day!
Natalia was a big surprise. I wanted her, but after months of trying i just left it up to God. Sure enough, we had our little girl. Natalia was born on May 14th, 2011 at 18 weeks gestation due to ruptured membranes. That day I met the love of my life, and i will always remember that day. There is not a day that goes by when i don't think about her. She is missed dearly, and loved like we have never loved before. Natalia, our little guardian angel <3
Jacob was born on June 11, 2011 and met the eyes of Jesus the same day. He will forever be in our hearts and will always be a part of our family. God has Jacob in his keeping and we have him in our hearts. We love you,
Mom, Dad and Sister Chancey
I was so excited when I found out about you. You were gonna be a little brother! I pictured you growing up making sure no one hurts your older sister.. That morning I woke up with all the blood.. That was the worse day of my life. I love you Yoshi, even though you aren't here with me, you'll forever be in my heart.
You were Mommy's sweet surprise..I loved you from the moment I found out you were coming...and will love you for an eternity..I wish I got to hear you cry...I love you baby boy...Sleep Sweet with the Angels..Till the day we meet in Heaven... <3 Mommy (Jennifer)
I miss you so much my precious little boy. I wish so much that I could hold you one more time, look at your precious face one more time to last until I see you in Heaven. The tears still come after all this time. A piece of me went with you. I love you. Born to Heaven June 5, 1999
She will be our little Angel forever. She went to Heaven August 13, 2011. We will never stop loving you.... Grammy
He is my little brother. He went to sleep shortly after he was born. I got to hold him like I did all my other siblings. He will always be in my heart. I love you Connor
6 weeks pregnant was not nearly long enuf to satisfy my heart!!! But 6 days of knowing u were comin was all it took for u to change my world!!! I wish I was going to hear ur cry, see ur pretty eyes, hold ur little hand n Nov, but that's not meant to be! Mommy n daddy love u soooo much!! We miss u everyday!!!
I lost you to soon. Only 8weeks 6days, but I'll love you forever. I am proud to share my birthday with you. Ill never forget what you looked like your tiny head, arms, and fingers. You were perfect. Too perfect for us on earth. Now you're a perfect angel in heaven. I love you baby girl more that anything I can describe. Love mommy :o)
My sweet Jacksun went to heaven on July 25, 2011 at 13 weeks. Your mommy and daddy love you so much more than you know. You were our little miracle. We miss you so much. We will see you in heaven someday.
My sweet baby girl, I will always love you and will never forget you. Thank you for being with us for 38 weeks I know you were only here for one purpose and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You were so perfect with your curly hair, I know I didn't get to see you crawl or walk, even cry but I know you're in a safer place where you will never feel pain and that brings comfort to my soul. One day baby girl I will get to hold you and your brother/sister who we lost before you. I will play and do everything I can't now. Thank you again my sweet baby for blessing my life, and keeping me healthy while you were inside me I am forever in debt with you. I love you with all my heart and I miss you.
MY cutest daughter Aminah, you always remain in my heart, dear. Mommy loves you so much and hopes to see you and hold you in heaven.
My precious angel Carter went to be with the Lord in August 2011 at 17 weeks. Mommy and daddy will never forget you, as well as your two sisters.
Emma Gail Morgan
Forever Loved, Never Forgotten♥
Sophie Kay Bailey
Beautiful,perfect little angel given to mummy for a short time, but missed with every beat of my heart.
My Sweet angel baby boy grew his wings on 10 march 2011. I will keep you in my heart till we meet again my sweet angel.
So much wanted. So much missed.
So much loved.
I'm knitting these little hats to help other moms and their little ones, in memory of all nine of my little baby angels born too soon. I have got through each day thinking of you, my precious little babies who I painfully and heartbreakingly miscarried even though I tried my hardest to cling on to you and keep you-I think of you all my precious darlings, such sweet souls and try to understand that god decided you needed -not a lifetime, but just a moment on this earth of ours- my heart and soul senses you and I know you have grown beautifully in spirit and that you are with me every waking moment sometimes you hide my keys and do other little things to let me know you are close but mostly you watch over me (with great grandma in heaven)while I sleep and dream with you, I love you all more than words can say and until we meet again, mommy has decided to keep busy now knitting hats for other little ones who left their mommies early just like you -to be with grandma and the angels too xxx
Eddy Maurice Smith III
My sweet Baby boy's constant
smiles from birth.
Cate Aubrey & Grant Carter
Grant Carter~ I thank you for the wonderful sonogram show you gave us at 12 weeks. It was the last time I saw you alive. I only felt you a few times before you died, but you touched my heart forever. Never did I think I would have to bury another baby. Then there was Cate Aubrey. I knew you were a baby girl and couldn't wait for you to complete our family. Never ever after having such healthy test results did I ever think I'd lose you too. I listened to your heartbeat one last time and within 12 hours you were gone. Both 15 weeks along and angels in Heaven. May you rest in peace side by side and play in Heaven together as your siblings do here on earth. I can't wait to hold you in my arms once again! Mommy loves you both forever and ever!
Natalia & Santiago
Mommy loves you and misses you both so very much. Not a second of any day goes by that i do not think of your beautiful tiny faces xxooxxoo
forever and ever
all my love,
I barely got to know you but I know I love you more than anything, I lost you at 5 weeks and every day without you gets harder. You should be growing in me. Mummy and Daddy cry every day and we miss you so much. I will cuddle you one day and give you all the kisses I never got a chance to. I will love you forever !
Mummy misses you so much and loves you even more. The angels took you when you should of stayed. I spent 3 short months carrying you and will always remember you. Love you baby xx
You left me in April 2011, i miss you so much, you should be growing inside me, kicking me and making me tired. I know you are with your Nanny and you are both watchng over me. I love you both so much. in my heart forever.
Lost at 6 weeks over a year ago, and I still miss you every day. I try and stay strong because I know you hate to see Mummy cry. I love you so much.
It has been a little while since you left us..I held you in my arms and wept as I said goodbye...I think of you often and I pray for your mom daily..she misses you too! I know gramma Marcie is rocking you and loving you until we get there...see you then my angel grandboy!
Mommy misses you everyday and I love you so much. I know you are in Heaven watching over us and hopefully someday we will be together again. Mommy loves you so much. Forever and ever. xoxo
You were my first baby, my miracle. After three and a half years of trying, God blessed us with you. I still don't completely understand why God only allowed you to be with us for 23 weeks, but I will never regreat them. The best memories were actually the last few hours in the hospital. I could hear your heartbeat constantly, and feel you kick. Then holding you in my arms, and kissing your little face. You looked just like your daddy, and your little sister looks a lot like you too. I miss you so much, and I cannot wait to be reunited again with you and your siblings in heaven. Thank you Lord for your blessing of Gavin, Bellybean and Bellybug.
Lord, thank you for giving me my little boy for 26 weeks. I am so blessed that you allowed me to take part in creating life. I know that you give and take away. I choose to praise you for that even though it is not easy. Please catch my tears as they fall for the ache I feel. Please comfort me in my time sorrow. Please reassure me that he is in heaven dancing and singing and worshiping you Father. He is healthy and whole and waiting for me. I envy him...he did not have to go through the pain of this life but straight into the arms of mercy. Thank you for the hope that I will one day be with my baby again. Kiss him for me and hold him and let him know how much I love and miss him. Again, thank you Lord for giving my Jose....thank you for teaching me so much over this past year. Thank you for the people that have been touched by little Jose.
Richard & Dexter
My only sons (twin boys) Were born when i was almost 6 months ,I layed in a hospital bed for almost 1 month on total bedrest do that they would have a chance in this world ..They lived for a few minutes and passed on ..as i sit here and cry ,my heart is broken and i will never forget my angels ,they are w/grandpa now ..We love & miss you both ..
Kim & Alfae
Luis A. Deida 3rd
I went into labor with my baby boy at 4 months. I miss him and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I love you baby boy. Mommy and Daddy and your sister Jayleeani miss you and always will.
Dakota & Nevada
I went into labor at 5 1/2 months with my twin daughters Dakota and Nevada. My little girl Dakota lived 5 hours and Navada lived 20 hours. I no god is takeing well care of you both you will no longer half to suffer or deal with pain. I no your in heaven watching over your little brother keeping him safe. There isn't a day that don't go by I don't think of you two my little angels we love you so much our hearts just break.We will always love you our beautiful girls you will never be forgotten.
I lost my sweet baby boy at 17 weeks. Mommy, Grandma, Grandpa, and Aunt Leighnee will always miss and love you. You're always in my heart and thoughts every day. I can't wait to see you again. You'll always be my lil angel! You gave me more hope and faith then I ever had. I want to thank you for that. I'm lucky to have had you as a son. I will love you always!
I went into labor at 23 weeks with my daughter, Angyl. I miss you every day, baby girl. I know you are looking over me, Ayden, and Alyssa and we love you very much.
Mama, Daddy, and Colston miss you so much! I know God is rocking you tonight and singing you the sweetest of lullabies!!! Mama will see you again some day! Colston misses you so much, but I know you'll look over him! I love you with all my heart, you are my instant Angel! I will always miss you!
Love, Mama, Daddy, and Colston!!!
We lost Lily at 18 weeks, it was the worst day of our lives. We received one of Calvin's Hat and will cherish this wonderful keepsake for the rest of our lives. It is comforting to know that people care and understand how we feel. We will never forget our precious little Angel.
I never got to hold you in my arms, but I will hold you in my heart forever and the love I felt for you from the moment of your conception will never die. You will always be my precious angel.
I went into labor at 22 weeks and Had my baby girl she was not even a pound. When they asked if I want to hold her, I could not because my baby was dying and all I could do was cry I cried for days
I was blessed to have, hold, and love my beautiful son for 21 years. He was killed while serving in the U.S. Army. He was a gentle and compassionate young man.
Lost at 6 weeks gestation.
Love you & miss you so much.
Ryan Jordan Charles
The Lord kept you on earth for 16 months. Now that you are safe in his arms, there will be no more pain and suffering for you my beautiful angel. Until the day we meet again. Love you always